I just can't stop smiling!

I got a letter!!! :-) I have felt like such crap for the past few days because I hadn't heard from Justin. I felt like I was sleepwalking yesterday, here but not really. Today was the worst yet. I try so hard to put on a smiling face so that my friends won't know just how alone I feel. They try to understand but just don't. Some seem to think that I should use this time to party and go out all the time, but I don't feel like it. One of my so-called friends has even tried to hook me up with friends of her fiance so I don't get "bored!" I flew through the roof when I found out! I guess some support and understanding is a little much to ask from some people. She doesn't have to agree with my decisions but to show such amazing disrespect it just crazy! On the whole though, my friends have been awesome. They invite me out but don't push me if I don't want to go. And I'm not saying that I've stayed at home the entire time Justin's been gone. It's just that some nights, I don't feel like going to the bar and getting hit on when that's the last thing I want. I don't always feel up to watching my friends and their significant other's.
I was so scared that Justin would leave and forget all about me. I know that sounds very sill and insecure but I just couldn't help myself. We've had a somewhat rocky road to get to where we are and I just didn't know if we would make it through all the time and distance. I told him I knew I could handle it, and I meant every word. I just didn't know if we could or if he would even want to. If there were ever a real life Peter Pan it would be Justin. He didn't want to grow up. He put it off for as long as he could but it caught up with him. It's been such a shock (amazing, but still shocking) to hear the change in his letters. He's talking about settling down, how much he's changed and missing me and what we're going to do when he gets home. He was starting to get there before he left but the Army seems to have whipped him into shape...in a hurry! lol I hate to let myself hope because I'm so scared of being let down, but if he's ready, I am! :-)
Justin's mom is not going to be happy with him, though. He didn't order individual pictures but said he "has a plan." The first thing I thought was, "uh-oh!" lol He wants us to actually go have professional pictures made once he gets home. So guess what I spent the last half hour doing? That's right...looking through galleries of local photographers. I have a feeling all the details will be left up to yours truly. :-)
Anyways, totally changing the subject. I think I'm moving in with Gretchin in July! Probably right before we go to Justin's graduation. I am soo excited!! We're both pretty laid back so I think it will work out just fine. The best part is I can finally get a puppy.
Mom just called and apparently the whole family is going out to eat tonight. I have 20 minutes to get ready. :-)