"I miss you and I'll be home soon..."

So...things are crazy around here, just like usual. :-D Justin was on a roll there for a while, calling and texting pretty regularly but then...he ran out of minutes. lol I sent him another phone card and I think his parents did too, because I got a call tonight! Yay! We have 45 days left until he's home. I can't wait! He's doing such an amazing job of writing even though he has a phone now. It's strange, but nothing takes the place of those letters. I've had a migraine all day and it's now just a dull pain so I think I'll go to bed and hopefully sleep the rest of it off. I just wanted to write a little something because it's been a while...

He's got these brown eyes that drive me crazy...

I just got off the phone with Justin!!! :-D We got to talk for a whole 13 minutes and 37 seconds!He now has a cell phone which is AWESOME! I'm not going to count on the fact that he'll be able to call anymore often, but still...
He asked me how many days til his graduation, I guess to check and see if I'm still keeping up with it. lol I knew the answer, of course. 57 days til graduation...56 til I see him again. *Sigh* I miss that boy like crazy and I'll never be able to sleep tonight, but I'm so happy! :-)

Time flies when you're having fun...

So...the picture above is what I want to see more than anything! lol It was taken last summer at Soldier Creek, where we spent pretty much every weekend. I'm just a country girl and love to get muddy and nasty on the back of a 4 wheeler. :-) We're going the first Saturday he's home!!! Tomorrow means that it is officially less than 2 months til J gets home! This past week has been amazing. J was on pass between BCT and AIT so he used a buddies cell and called! I got to talk to him Saturday night...and then he drunk dialed me at 2:30 Sunday morning. Apparently, they had a case a beer and he had a big box of Cheez-Its...so he was practically in heaven. :-) After they got back on base they got to keep cell phones, so he called Monday, Wednesday and Friday, plus I got text messages and a letter on Thursday! I didn't know what to do with all that contact. A friend and I decided that I'll probably pass out from excitement when I actually get to talk to him and SEE him at the same time. lol
Anyways...the tattoo I got last Friday has healed really well. I had the word Faith put on my left hip. It's pink and there are three small, heart shaped music notes above the h. I love it and can't wait to show J. I told him about it, but I've still managed to keep the pierced belly button a secret somehow. ;-) I just feel awesome right now...I know I'll have more rough days before we're through with this separation but at the moment things are looking up. :-D

Just for a moment...

Today came out of nowhere. I've been doing really well the past few days and thought that I'd made it over the hump. I guess not...
Gretchin and I were close to Justin's parents house this afternoon and she wanted to see what it looked like, so we drove past. I was fine before that, laughing and telling her little things about this place and that place. Then we got past the house and I looked back at the driveway behind the house. His truck was sitting there and for a split second I forgot he's gone. My heart dropped to my stomach and I thought...."Justin's home!" Just as soon as the thought came, though it was gone. I remembered that he's not home. Hasn't been in a few months and won't be for a few more months. I never expected it to affect me the way it did but it really upset me.

Dixieland Delight...

I'm feeling mellow tonight. I'm normally a pretty laid back person and tonight has made me realize just how keyed up I've been for the last 2 months. I stopped my car on the way home and sat there in the middle of nowhere, looking out my sunroof at the stars. The weather is absolutely perfect and I love to be outside on spring and summer nights, just taking things in. I'm a simple, small town, Southern country girl and it doesn't take much to make me happy. Friends and a bonfire, or a quilt and a porch swing, it doesn't really matter to me. I don't have to go out every night or be wined and dined. Gretchin and I went and walked tonight, now that she's made it through finals week and we were talking about life in general. She's so determined to graduate and open her daycare. It's what she's wanted since she was little and it's her priority. Her career is what motivates her. She's planning things around graduation and doesn't want to get married before she has that worked out. I admire her for that, but don't feel the same way. To me, every job I have will be just that... a job. I can't help but feel that my career will be my family, being a wife and mom someday. I love to be busy and couldn't handle not having a job, but after I have kids, I want to stay home with them. At least until they go to school. Then I can go back to work and use my degree but no job will ever be as important as my job as wife and mother. I feel like my kids will be the most important thing I'll ever do. If you screw that up, then that's it. You only get one chance to mold and shape a life and if you don't pay enough attention or give it your all, where does that leave you? I won't live forever, but after I'm gone my children will still be here and I want to leave the right kind of legacy behind.
Anyways...that's just something that's been rattling around in my head for a few days now. :-) On to more trivial things. Like I said, Gretch and I went walking tonight. It was great! I hadn't seen her in a week and she said that I look slimmer. I wanted to kiss her! lol I've really been working at it and I can tell some slight differences. Mostly I just feel better...more confident.
I took my brother and sister out to eat tonight and it was definitely interesting! My little brother is one of the funniest people I know. He can imitate just about anyone and is an all-around ham. He had me laughing so hard I was choking. The kid is hilarious!
I had a dream last night that Justin had gotten home from basic and it was the most realistic dream I've ever had. I woke up fully expecting him to be there...which kinda sucked when I realized he wasn't there. Oh well...we're doing good. 78 more days til graduation! :-) Not that I'm counting or anything. lol I know I'm likely to be a wreck when we actually get there but I absolutely can not wait!

"Yeah, here in Kentucky I'm doing fine..."

SO...today was insanely busy! :-) After work I stopped by the Bookrack, a used bookstore here in town, to try and find something that Justin might like to read. I couldn't find a single Tom Clancy but I did find a paperback that looked like it may be something similar. I hope...lol. I tried and it's like Ashley said, I'm sure he'll be so glad to have something to read that it won't really matter too much. I bought two romance novels for myself...they're my guilty pleasure. I love to read but sometimes I just want something that doesn't require too many brain cells to figure out. Plus, I'm a hopeless romantic and a sucker for a happy ending. :-)
When I got home, it was time to get to work. We'd unloaded a bunch of furniture yesterday and it was time to get things situated today. Mitch and I put up my new bed, then moved on to assembling his new queen sized bed. It didn't take too long and we had it done before mom got home.
I've stuck to my diet today, but it hasn't been easy. I was pretty bad over the weekend, but I'm determined to get a handle on it this week. Between all the new restaurants opening in town and the fellowship meal at church, I just didn't even want to follow Atkins. Like I said though, I'm back on the wagon as of this morning.
My shirt came in today, too! When I opened it up I thought there was no way I would fit into it, but I guess it was bigger than it looked. lol It's Caribbean blue and in hot pink says, "My soldier is hotter than yours." I really think Justin will get a kick out of it when he sees it and I'm proud to wear it. :-) I may be a little bit biased but I think the statement is completely true!
All in all, today was a really good day. I feel better than I have in a week or two, maybe even longer. We're getting really close to the halfway mark and things seem to be getting easier now that BCT is almost over. It's strange. I would definitely expect him to say things are easier because basic is supposed to be the hard part, but it's gotten better for me, too. Maybe part of it is the fact that we have the first part under our belt or maybe it's the fact that I know he's made it through the first half of this and is still loving it. I was so worried that he wouldn't really like it once he got on base, but he LOVES it and I couldn't be any happier! :-) Big sigh...I'm happy and going to bed! Night...

2 letters...in 2 days

Yep...in case you didn't guess by the title...I got another letter today! :-) This one was another short one, but still awesome to read. Justin can now get books. Add another thing to my mission list which so far looks like this...
1. Keep an eye out for an apartment that Justin will like
2. Find books that he'll actually be interested in
3. Order t-shirt
4. Make and order Shutterfly book
5. Get in shape! :-)
6. Get hair back into the condition it was in last spring...long, blond and healthy
7. Get signed up for fall semester
8. Save as much money as possible
They really aren't in any particular order, but that's at least 8 things I want done by July 17. I like working with a deadline because it keeps me motivated!
I just went for a jog but it was a little closer to dark than I realized. There was a massive pack of coyotes just over the hill and it made me kind of nervous. We've had all sorts of trouble with them lately. The population has just exploded!
Right now there is a brand new weight bench sitting in my den, so I think I'm going to try it out! I'm pretty stoked about it, I have to confess! I don't really have much new to say anyways. Just in a really good mood and thought I'd take the chance to write something that isn't totally depressing! :-)